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Written By Kelechi Oji

January 26, 2023

I Am Peter but the Rooster Hasn’t Crowed Yet

Many times in my Christian life, I continuously pounded if any of these religious dictates were genuine and worthy of believing and following. Who is Christ? where is the Holy Ghost, and how long does it take to find Him? If God is powerful and loving, then why ……..? These questions express my confusion about the vast disparity between the ideal( God, heaven) and reality ( Humans, earth). The contrast that the world in all its sins and impurity somehow works, the rich are not necessarily holy and pious. Most religious countries are usually the poorest; churches are at total capacity in areas where Government fails and basic amenities are lacking. The wealthy are protected from most, if not all, of the hell this world can bring, and they are easily ameliorated when they face some heat from life. Morality is high in places where the one-eyed man is king; immorality is praised where all eyes can see. Western cultural degeneration has yet to preclude it from being the most desired country for the world’s peasants to migrate to.


A view like mine and many others who care to think questions our faith. The question of its necessity and truth. The importance of God is questioned as though one found God and put him on the courtroom stand ( if anyone could even dare). Why do we need the invisible and all-knowing God? Why do I and many others hold on to this enigmatic truth that one day Christ will come for us, and we will see him face to face? Why should we consider earthly desires mundane for a higher course we haven’t experienced? Are we high/ addicted to the narration of hope- hope that tomorrow is bright, that there is more to our pitful state than meets the eye?


When these questions are finely presented in my mind, asked by my darker self. I crumble into denial, denial not that I don’t know christ but denial that i don’t have sufficient answers to these seemingly daunting questions. Denial that I have not, through experience and logical reasoning, confirmed that christ is all and all in all. Denial that my life is not mine but his.


In the epiphany of my denial, I realized that I am Peter, love the lord, and cut the ears of those unwilling to listen to his word. I am Peter, wanting to save my savior. I don’t want him crucified, His name in the mud by unscrupulous, amoral groups. I am Peter, saw my master walk on water, and so did I. I am Peter who, through revelation, knew the identity of my master( Christ the son of the living God). Also, I am Peter, who the devil wants to sift as wheat. I am Peter, who would go back to the fishing business at the slightest resistance to my commitments to God. I am Peter, who denied knowing and working with my master. I am Peter, who christ needed to watch and pray. I slept, unable to bear the burdens of my master. I am Peter, threatened by a servant girl to declare my allegiance to my king. I am Peter, scared of dining with those I consider sinners. I am Peter holier than thou. I am Peter, waiting for the rooster crowed to remind me that I am bought with a price- Price money can’t buy. I am waiting to be reminded that God is merciful and can be trusted to keep his promises. I am Peter waiting until it convenient to tell the world about christ and his finished works. I am Peter waiting to see if my plausible deniability can last a little longer, so I can avoid speaking to the world about the word that came to save the world. I am Peter anointed to walk on water, yet I tremble and sink when the wave rage high. I am Peter, saved by grace through faith. I am Peter, and  I don’t need a rooster crowed to run to my king and plead for mercy. I am Peter, and He is God.

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1 year ago

Always a thrill to read these articles.

1 year ago

Nice one bro, it’s very relatable

1 year ago

Yet another beautiful piece. The topic brought a few possible interpretations to mind and the beautiful depiction of denial was perfect. Thank you for this.

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